I generally don't blog without posting a picture but I've had this question running around my head for a little while now and just need to get it out somewhere. I'm not sure that this is the best place but maybe some of your insight will help me move on.....
You see I've made it. What I'm trying to say is that ALL of my life I have been dreaming, fantasizing, striving for and focused on this exact moment.......the time in my life when I would finish school and accomplish my goal of becoming a labor and delivery nurse, meet the man of my dreams, have children and become a mother to them.....buy a house and settle down. These have been my dreams and goals as a child and a young adult. And it's true...when you set your mind to accomplishing your dreams you can GET IT DONE..... and the great thing is that I did!! Sooo I should be happy right?!? Don't get me wrong...I am very happy and for the most part Love my life.... It's just...what's next?
It's such a weird place to be in life. I've accomplished my life long goals....(life up to this point)I know, I know....I still have a goal of raising these kids to be happy, well adjusted young adults....which in and of it's self is quite a task these days.....
I mean a goal for me personally...where am I going? What is the next thing I should work for? I guess what's getting me is I feel I know how my life is going to go....I've seen it in motion...I see myself in my mother. She's a nurse and has worked at the same job for 40 + years and is now retired and traveling a ton!!!!! Don't get me wrong...she has an awesome life....it's rock solid, comfortable and for the most part, I believe she's happy. Not a bad life to follow..... and in much the same way I don't see myself changing jobs - EVER- why should I...it's comfortable, dependable, pays well and I work with some of my BEST friends EVER....it's a great job. And truly...I don't see Todd and I ever moving out of the Pacific Northwest..even though we talk constantly about it. Our family is here, our livelihood is here we are comfortable here..... so really.... nothing is going to change.
As I type this it is becoming more and more clear to me.....maybe that SHOULD be my goal. Instead of expecting my life to follow in my mother's footsteps..maybe my goal should be to keep my life in her footsteps. Keep life for my family solid, comfortable and dependable. I mean..I'm not trying to tempt fate and I know I can't see the future....I guess life after finishing school, getting married and having children is about keeping all of that plugging along on a fairly routine, and dependable track, avoid the pit stops and the dangers....that's the goal. OR IS IT????
Well....there you have it my current quandary......I'm pretty sure I can't answer this question today, tomorrow or even the next day.....it's just something to think about......
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Friday, January 4, 2008
It's a BOY.....
Introducing: Riley Barnard
He's 4 months old and he is a King Charles Spaniel.....basically he's a mix breed between a King Charles Cavalier and a Cocker spaniel! Needless to say he is absolutely ADORABLE and a very good little boy! So far all is well...the cat (Smokey) is not so found of our new family member but is adjusting accordingly! Riley is doing GREAT! He's sleeping through the night in his kennel without any crying and has only had one little accident in the house....Yippee!!
I know, I know...we are crazy for getting a dog in the winter....but what can I say?! How can you ignore that face?! He's just what the doctor ordered to get us through these dark, rainy days!
I can't get rid of the "demon eyes" ....it's still a cute picture though! I hope you all get to come visit little Riley soon!
HAPPY NEW YEAR ! 2008....
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